It was like a flip of a switch. I didn't know how or why it started, and even to this day, I still don’t. I developed a body dysmorphia issue and was quickly consumed by a world of anorexic tendencies. I barely ate, I worked out excessively, and I dropped from 125 pounds down to 89 in just a few short months. I spent my whole junior year of high school in the worst state of mind I could have ever possibly imagined. I struggled daily when I looked at myself in the mirror, when food was placed in front of me, or when anyone made any kind of comment in regards to my appearance.
Flash forward to June of 2017, I made a drive over to California Elite Training Center after watching a couple powerlifting meets in the weeks prior. I walked into this huge warehouse garage and I immediately felt like for the first time in what seemed like my whole life, I was in the exact place I was supposed to be.
I’ve been training as a powerlifter for two years now. Not only has my physical strength increased, but mentally, I have become the strongest version of myself that I have ever been. When I look in the mirror, I now see a strong woman, who has achieved things on multiple platforms that I never thought were possible. When food is placed in front of me, I don’t shy away from it anymore. I gladly take it and enjoy every last bite of whatever it may be. Finally, when someone makes a comment towards my physical appearance, whether it’s positive or negative, I hit them with a double bicep flex, a big ol’ smile on my face, and I go about my day.
My name is Jennessa and I am the happiest, healthiest, and heaviest I’ve ever been in my entire life and I am Kinda Fit Kinda Fat.” - Jennessa, Teacher, KFKF Powerlifting Athlete